I knew it would happen and you did not disappoint. However, I am not DEAD yet, nor likely to be in the near future. So sorry to disappoint.
I was very foolish to use my blog for the MORAIS garbage and have it tainted, but too late now.
I am hardened to your spite and hatred BUT friends who read my blog are not…and when I say my friends I am talking about Cancer patients .
Do you wish the same for my friend ???’Shall I pass on your good wishes OR am I the only Cancer patient you have such JOY for?
I post again my friends post who gave her permission to use on my blog.
I am not like you and hope you NEVER have to go through this.
You will NOTE if you are interested my friend has a wonderful sense of humour and I love her dearly.
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The following is not a list of complaints. My posts, along with my journal are documenting my “journey” so I want to throw down some of the newer chemo side-effects for personal posterity. Won’t be fun reading but you’re welcome to it.
*Mouth taste: it’s as if I haven’t brushed my teeth in weeks – kind of furry, swollen, slippery; no amount of brushing changes it. Kiss me baby.
*Sores from the inside out: my hands, feet, mouth, nose, esophagus, rectum have sores that I can feel on the inside but mostly can’t see on the outside. For example, trying to bend my thumbs makes the palm-side joint feel like it’s going to rip open.
*Hair: loss of hair, lashes, brows is not a just a self-image issue. No nose hair means constant nasal drip, nose sores and unprotected respiratory; few lashes brings a lovely pea tinted goop that seals eyes shut at night and sometimes when blinking (No! Mr. I’m not winking at you, my eye’s stuck shut) – this eye goop comes from external crap landing and swelling in normal eye liquid and from “chemo trash” (my doctor’s words) trying to wash it’s way out of the eye; hair stubble is painful as it picks & sticks to, and rubs the wrong way on, a pillow for 10 to 15 hours – grrrr; pubic hair loss is shocking as purple tinted skin appears; leg, armpit & nipple hair loss has no down side, I’m going to Italy on the money I save not buying razors!
*Energy swings: Remember Lucy from Charlie Brown? She always pulled the football out from under poor Charlie just as he was feeling his most confident and able. I wanted to scream “that’s not fair!” Well, It’s like that when I’m confident enough to gently “work” a couple hours in my garden or cook dinner or defend myself against roving dog-hair-balls. I feel good and believe my body is benefitting from the exercise but what it really does is stir up all the chemicals and lands me on my back for recovery time. That’s NOT fair!
*Anxiety: OMG! Out of the blue anxiety, the likes of which PMS would die to have in its arsenal, sneaks up from behind and makes you want to jump out of your skin! Probably my most disparate cancer/chemo moment was an anxiety attack fueled by Compazine. It felt life threatening.
*Tears: like anxiety, tears are part of the game whether you feel like having them or not. Let-em flow, it’s good for sticky eye syndrome. There may be times when crying is a response to feeling and then there are the chemo tears; all good for pity’s sake. These tears are different from the constant eye “tearing” (see eye pea-goop above).
*Chemo brain: born a dyslexic, shinny-thing syndrome blonde I’m used to occasional brain failure but utter meltdown is noticeable. If there’s “chemo trash” flushing through the eyes, internal sores and the rest, what’s that poor swollen itching brain going through? I use the buddy system whenever leaving the house. Doc says forgetaboutit; things will return to normal a few weeks after chemo if complete.
*Weight changes: who cares! I’m already bald, sticky, scabby, crying and psychotic, who’s going to notice the weight?
*Blurred vision: possibly a blessing.
*Scent: maybe I stink too – do I stink?
I’m just sayin’ there’s hugs and kisses in that candy bowl, grap yourself a few fistsful.
P S GOOD NEWS! FRIDAY’S ULTRASOUND SHOWS A 50% TUMOR REDUCTION. ATTAGIRL!
Girl, I was going to say you stink, but it was a last Friday’s unfinished burger behind the monitor LOLOLOL
Love You, My Dearest Punky Girl! Really, You are a very special Person!
Because you’re a person absolutely correct, decent, well educated, with great character and good moral .
A must!
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I have in the last couple of days received in my mail box hate mail……. HENCE the title of this Post.
I have been copying the Pros from my dashboard who have been crawling all over my blog.
It seems both have now changed their links. I wonder WHY?
It matters not, the proof is there, they were here.
My Dearest Girl:
If You receive hate maisl, why don´t block ?
You must switch off from those people. People?????
Please take off because they delete imediatly.
Trash to trash, no?
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Trash to trash BUT the meaning is :
You are very important and the poor pros are a disgrace.
I think they wish arrest more proprieties.
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