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From the moment your wife is diagnosed with Breast Cancer you become her carer 24/7.

The job you have now taken on, without experience ,or knowledge. It is ALL trial and error. But if you do it all with love, you can never go far wrong.

William Green talks about caring for his wife after Breast Cancer.

“Your test results from the biopsy came back positive; you have cancer.

You need to call your surgeon.

” These two sentences, given over a phone line by a cold, unknown, detached voice, a voice that sounded like it was ordering a pizza instead of reporting deadly news, sent my wife and myself on an emotional roller coast ride that is still running. Before I could formulate a coherent response, the line went dead. The Doctor had delivered the message quickly, “professionally,” and efficiently then disconnected the call. As if to tell us; welcome to the world of cancer treatments just follow our directions, don’t ask questions, and you might survive.

My wife broke down and cried. I’m holding her in my arms trying to reassure her that everything is going to be fine; however, in my minded, I’m remembering my mother’s fight with breast cancer 15 years earlier. Technically she was considered a survivor. She made it to the five year mark so that was considered a success by the medical community. The cancer came back at the five and a half years mark; three month after that, she was gone. I didn’t know what to say or how to say it. All I could do was hold my wife tight and let her know I’d be there for her.

She said, “I don’t want to die.”

I told her, “You’re not going to die! You will beat this!” My wife then said something that the full meaning of which did not register with me.

“Don’t leave me!”

I assumed she meant not to let go of her. It wasn’t until after we came out of that dark abyss of cancer that I finally understood what she meant.

Thus began my journey as a primary caregiver, for the second time, but this time it was my wife who needed me.

The Nightmare Scenario

There are classes on being a caregiver, how to handle the stress, how to remain upbeat and positive, what you should do for your love one who is sick; however, most people don’t take those classes until after the fact. If you’re working full time, which most people are, taking classes is out of the question. So you learn how to be a caregiver.

The term caregiver doesn’t even begin to describe what you do. As a caregiver you are a nurse, psychologist, philosopher, cook, cleaner, and drill sergeant Along with the aforementioned jobs, you are also the financial heart of the family. If you don’t work no one eats, treatments stop, and you lose your home. So the stress level is particularly high.

What are you to do?

How do you squeeze forty-eight hours into a twenty-four hour day? Physically and emotionally you can’t, and the person who believes otherwise is just fooling them self into thinking they can do everything. The only thing you have to remember is you are responsible for getting your wife through this ordeal no one else. You must remain positive, reassure your her that you will be there for her no matter what, and most importantly that you love her. These last two points are very important. The nightmare scenario a woman has during this time is that her husband is going to walk out the door.

Right now you’re saying I would never do that, but unfortunately there are men out there who just can’t handle the pressure. They put on a show but when it is time to stand and deliver they are nowhere to be found. Just remember when you stood at that alter, in front of your family and friends, you made a promise to “love, honor, and cherish, in sickness and in health.” Have you ever wonder why sickness came before health? The answer is obvious, it is easy to love, honor, and cherish when your wife is healthy, but when your wife is sick, I mean chemo sick, and emotionally devastated then those nine words take on a whole new meaning. Your wife is counting on you to get her through this and you had better be there otherwise you will never be able to look at your self in the mirror when you shave every morning.

Once the initial news wears off, you begin to fight back and believe me it is a fight. While your spouse is fighting for her life, you will be fighting for her. The surgeons, oncologist, X-ray techs, primary care doctor, and any other specialist, you may have to see, deal with the cancer every day to them it is a job they can’t become too emotionally involved otherwise they will crack up. So you try to understand when they are extremely cold, efficient, and aloof. I do not mean to say that these men and women are uncaring. On the contrary, –with the exception being the doctor who informed us of the biopsy results- the well being of the patient and the dedication to move heaven and earth to make sure everything is done to help the patient is the primary focus of these men and women.

Finding the Right Doctor

Your first hurtle to overcome is finding an oncologist. Your wife needs to pick a doctor who she will feel comfortable with; who will take the time to listen to her and answer her questions, along with your questions, who will explain what is going on in terms that both of you can understand. Most of your time will be spent with the doctor’s staff; the nurses and technicians who draw blood, check vitals, and administer the chemo. These people are the back bone of the practice and they are the ones who make the doctor look good make sure you are comfortable with these people as well. If for any reason your wife, or you feel, uncomfortable with the doctor or the staff find another one. Do not be intimidated or worry about hurt feeling this is your wife’s life your dealing with. Finding the right doctor will help tremendously with your wife’s mental recovery as well as her physical recovery.

The Internet has allowed people instant access to information that twenty years ago would have taken a layman month to find. This can be a double edge sword. Doctors are not happy when patients come in, after a self diagnose through the Internet, and ask for a prescription. Nor should they be. The doctor is the trained professional with almost a decade of training. You will have had maybe four hours of Internet research. You are not the expert the doctor is. I am not saying do not do research. By all means research the type of cancer you’re dealing with find out everything you can about that particular cancer. This way when you do see the doctor you will have a better understanding of what is going on and your question will be more specific which will allow for more definitive answers from the doctor.

My wife and I were lucky the oncologist she picked the first time was fantastic. He was compassionate and upbeat. His staff was first rate their main concern was for the comfort and well being of the patient. They worked around our schedule whenever possible. If my wife or I had a question it was answered immediately. The doctor explained the whole process from beginning to the end, which was five years down the road. The first step in this long process was testing.

Testing

With a diagnosis of cancer the main concern is to find out how far the cancer has spread. My wife was scheduled for lymph nods test, liver test, and a MRI. After each test there was the interminable waiting period to get the results from the doctor. As each test result came back negative we hugged and cried. There was one test that we had the result instantaneously. The bone scan test. The bone scan was also the most nerve racking. When I say the results were instantaneous, I mean it literally.

This test is designed to detect cancer in the bone, white spots mean cancer, if the test results come back positive then the odds are not good. The test involves injecting a dye into the body. This dye then gets into the bones. A computer monitor then reveals if there is any cancer in the bone.

The test begins with my wife was supine on the table, the machine is making whirling sounds, the monitor is slowly revealing her skeleton, just like a curtain being lowered from the top down. My wife’s position made viewing the monitor impossible so it was up to me to give a running commentary as the dark screen slowly dissolved into the gray image of her bones. We held our breath, my wife prayed and I lost enamel from my molars. How am I going to tell her if there are white spots? Millimeter by millimeter the dark screen turned gray each millimeter deciding how long our future together will be. Finally, the tips of her toes were revealed and the bones were clean. The last test was done the cancer had only progressed to stage two. It was in the breast and maybe the lymph nodes, but at this point we knew the chances were extremely good that she had caught it in time. The odds were in our favor. The next step was surgery.

Twenty –Four Hours and You’re on Your Own

Insurance companies have a formula by which they decide the amount of post- operative care a patient should receive after an invasive medical procedure. At the time of my wife’s radical mastectomy the insurance companies deemed that twenty-four hours of post-operative care was all a women needed after undergoing a radical mastectomy. A doctor could only override this if there was a serious medical complication.

We checked into the day surgery wing of the hospital. Filled out the necessary forms, paid the co-pay then sat down. Ten minutes later our name was called. The instructions were simple;

“Go down the hallway take the elevator to day surgery pre- op on the second floor”

We stepped off the elevator went over to the desk and gave our name. The assistant behind the desk punched some keys on her keyboard looked up at us and said’ “Step through the doors to your right. A nurse will take you to your pre- op room.”

We had check in down stairs at six AM she was not taken out of pre-op until Ten AM. I kissed her one last time and said I would be there in post op when she woke up. The transporter, that’s what the person is called who wheels patients down to surgery, wheeled my wife down the hall and into an elevator. As the doors closed I silently prayed that she would be ok then I went to into the bathroom locked myself into a stall and cried. Thus began our separate journeys that day.

While my wife was in surgery, I was sitting in an uncomfortable chair in the day surgery wing of the hospital drinking coffee and watching the clock. The minutes slowly ticked by all I could think about was the worried look on my wife’s face and how I could not reassure her that everything was going to be alright. She was undergoing invasive surgery; she would have a piece of her body removed in the hopes of removing all the cancerous cells. All I could do was trust in the doctors and hope there would be no complications. I can’t remember how many hours I waited; it seemed like an eternity. The seconds ticked of like minutes, minutes ticked of like hours, and hours ticked off like days. Finally the telephone rang- the hospital gives the next of kin a cell phone so the doctor can call and tell you how the surgery went- the doctor’s voice on the other end of the line was clear and concise “The surgery went fine there where no complications. We got clean edges. You can see her in an hour.”

I thanked the doctor and asked, “ She’s alright?”

He responded; “She’s fine there were no complications the edges are clean.”

I thanked him again then the line went dead, what are you suppose to say at a time like that? Except thank God and thank you Doctor.

An hour later I’m in the recovery room holding my wife’s hand as she came out of the anesthesia. Nurses and doctors, standing two beds down, are arguing over who screwed up in the sedation of the patient they are standing over. The recovery room nurse came over and said my wife’s bed was ready and they would watch her for twenty-four hours. Then she would be released.

The hospital room was small and cramped the nurses came and went. The surgeon came in and reviewed the procedure and reassured us that everything was fine. My wife was in and out of sleep for most of the twenty –four hours. By early morning the nurse was in checking on her and preparing her for discharge. Part of the discharge procedure is to teach the caregiver certain procedures that will have to be done until the drains and stitches are removed. The doctor came in checked her one last time, said he would sign us up for a home health care visiting nurse then signed my wife out. Twenty–four hours from the time she went into day surgery and we were on our own.

They Where More Than Just Words

If I Wanted to Pratice Medicine I would Have Gone to Med School

Before we left the hospital, the nurse showed me how to “strip the drains” then “clean and dress the wound.” The drain is what the medical profession calls a clear flexible plastic tube that is sewn into the incision the other end of which is attached to a medium size clear plastic bulb. As the wound heals blood drains into the tube and down into the bulb. Once the bulb is full you need to empty the contents other wise it will back up into the wound.

The nurse showed me how to “strip the line and disconnect the bulb” on one drain then gave me the privilege to do the other drain. The procedure is straight forward but disconcerting for a non- medically trained person. To strip the line you first pinch off the line as close as possible to the incision with you thumb and forefinger of your left hand. You then take your thumb and forefinger of your right hand, wet the tips for friction, squeeze the tube as tight as you can and pull down about three to four inches. This pushes the clotted blood through the line. You continue this procedure until you have reached the end of the line which is usually about three feet long.

Once the line is cleared and all the coagulated blood is in the bulb you then must pull the tube from the bulb and empty the contents of the bulb into the sink. Wash the bulb and reattach it to the line. Once both lines are cleared you then redress the wound with antibiotic ointment and a gauze pad. Safety pin the bulb to the specially designed garment for post mastectomy patients. You will do this procedure about three times a day for approximately three day. All the while your wife will be in pain and you will be fearful of causing more pain. The doctors and nurse didn’t bother to explain that the draining of the blood causes pain along with stripping the line.

Along with the physical pain there is philological pain that you both will go through. She will see her body for the first time with a large flat area, in my wife’s case, with no nipple, and a large purple scar. You try not to react to this sight but you realize that she is seeing her body for the first time with part of it gone. You are wondering what is she thinking, the last thing I wanted to do was to react in any way. When I saw the look on her face I was scared. I kept saying to myself over and over “she doesn’t deserve this; what the hell happened?” I wanted to cry because I could not fix it. I could not take away the pain; I could not fix the physical problem all I could do was reassure her that she was still beautiful and desirable no matter what was happening, and she was and still is!

At this point, I was angry at the world, the medical profession, and the HMOs in particular. I am taking care of my wife who just had MAJOR surgery, a piece of her body had been amputated, I’m afraid I might pull to hard on the line as I’m stripping it and pull the drains out; she’s also afraid of the same thing. I’m worrying about staff infection, I’m afraid she might slip, when I’m helping her to the bathroom or into bed, and I might grab her the wrong way to keep her from falling causing more damage. Five minutes of instruction from nurse and I’m qualified to do this! Are the powers that be out of their minds? If I wanted to practice medicine I would have gone to med school!

We got through those two weeks with out any major physical problems, but those first few days home where upsetting for both of us. We really didn’t know what warning signs to look for concerning post-operative complications. All we where told was if there is a problem come back into the hospital. We were lucky, but I’m sure there are people out there who where not as lucky.

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After cancer treatment, some people notice changes in their memory, concentration and the way they think. Women with breast cancer were the first to report these problems, which they linked to their chemotherapy treatment. So they called the changes ‘chemo brain’. Another name people use is ‘chemo fog’.

It is not clear exactly what causes these memory and concentration changes in people with cancer. So calling them ‘chemo brain’ may not be accurate. Mild cognitive impairment (MCI) is a more accurate description used by doctors. Another name is ‘cognitive dysfunction’.

People use the word ‘cognitive or cognition’ in different ways. It basically means thinking. In psychology, it means the way you process information or understand the world and how it works.

Most people who have cognitive changes are able to do everyday things. But they may notice they aren’t able to do some things quite as well as before they had cancer. Symptoms can include

Memory loss – forgetting things that you normally remember

Difficulty thinking of the right word for a particular object

Difficulty following the flow of a conversation

Trouble concentrating or focusing on one thing

Difficulty doing more than one thing at a time (multi tasking)

More difficulty doing things you used to do easily, such as adding up in your head

Fatigue (tiredness and lack of energy)

Confusion

Mental fogginess

The changes are often mild and very subtle. But if you have them they can reduce your quality of life. Doctors now know that people with different types of cancer may have these problems. So it’s not just breast cancer – and it may not just be chemotherapy that causes the problems.

Who gets chemo brain

It is not certain how many people have mild cognitive impairment after cancer. A review looked at women with breast cancer and suggested the number of women with cognitive impairment is somewhere between 1 in 6 (about 16%) and 1 in 2 (50%). We need more research to confirm how many women with breast cancer have these problems.

A review of studies in 2008 showed that some men having prostate cancer treatment to lower testosterone levels had cognitive impairment. Between about half (47%) and about two thirds (69%) of the men in these studies had these types of changes. The men showed difficulty in coping with problems that involved mentally rotating objects in space (spatial ability) and problems with multi tasking. But we need larger, more thorough studies that include brain scans so we can understand more about how prostate cancer treatment affects thought processes. We also need more research to find out how many people with other types of cancer are affected.

How chemo brain may affect you

The symptoms of cognitive impairment can come and go. How much you notice them seems to depend on what you are doing. For example, if you need to juggle a number of things as part of your normal day, you may notice it more than someone who doesn’t. People often notice it more when they go back to work. Tiredness usually makes the symptoms worse.

For most people, the symptoms have either gone or really improved within a year of ending treatment. But for some people the symptoms can be long term and may continue for years after treatment has finished.

Research suggests that people who have mild cognitive impairment are also more likely to have depression, anxiety, and fatigue. We don’t know whether the causes of these are the same as the causes of cognitive impairment, or whether one leads to the other.

One of the problems with testing for these changes is that current psychological tests are not always sensitive enough to pick up the sort of problems that people have after cancer. So people who say they are having problems tend to come out of the tests with a ‘normal’ score.

Causes of chemo brainWe don’t know what causes mild cognitive impairment. Research suggests that there may be a number of factors that contribute to it, including

Chemotherapy

Other cancer treatments

Anxiety, fatigue, old age, depression

Changes in blood proteins called cytokines

Chemotherapy

So far, research hasn’t clearly shown whether chemotherapy causes these thought and memory changes. Early studies only tested people after their chemotherapy. These tests showed that people had cognitive impairment. But more recent research has shown that some people with cancer have similar problems before they start any treatment and that the changes may even improve during treatment. This implies that it’s something to do with having cancer, rather than having cancer treatment.

German researchers looked at women with breast cancer before, during and after chemotherapy. Their research suggested that other unknown factors affect thought processes before chemotherapy but that chemotherapy may make these problems worse in some women.

Research looking at other types of cancers has shown that chemo can cause thought and memory problems. In 2008, Swedish researchers found that men with testicular cancer who had 4 or more cycles of chemotherapy could be at risk. They tested men who had treatment between 4 and 21 years ago. The men had problems with some aspects of language. They were likely to say similar but incorrect words for things during the tests. About 1 in 3 men (36%) who had chemotherapy had problems, compared with about 1 in 6 men (17%) who hadn’t had any chemotherapy. But these men were only tested after treatment not before.

Researchers have also used MRI scans to look into whether the brain works differently in people who have had chemotherapy. People in the research study did a memory test. The test started simply and became more difficult. At the same time they had a brain MRI scan. In all groups of people, the researchers could see an increase in the activity in the brain during the test. But the activity was less in the people who’d had chemotherapy.

The researchers also found that the area of the brain dealing with emotions became more active in people who’d had chemo and then reported problems. Unfortunately this study looked at the patients at only one point in time, not before and after treatment. To find out how chemotherapy affects people over time, we need long term studies.

A Dutch trial looked at women with breast cancer and compared different types of chemotherapy. They looked at women before and after treatment and compared them with women not having chemotherapy and women who didn’t have breast cancer. The research found that women treated with high dose chemotherapy were more likely to have cognitive impairment than those treated with standard dose treatment.

Other cancer treatments

Many people have more than one type of treatment for cancer, which makes it difficult to work out what is causing a particular side effect. A small study looked at 31 women treated with the hormone therapies, tamoxifen and anastrozole. They found that women taking anastrozole had more thought and memory problems than women taking tamoxifen. Another study compared women taking tamoxifen with women taking exemestane and with women who hadn’t had breast cancer. This study found that the women taking tamoxifen had more problems with memory and organisation skills than those taking exemestane and the women who hadn’t had cancer. We need more research to find out what effects hormone therapy and other cancer treatments may have.

Anxiety, fatigue, old age, depression

From research, we know that people who report thought and memory problems after chemo are more likely to have anxiety and depression than people who don’t have these symptoms. But it isn’t clear whether one causes the other. There could be another factor that leads to thought and memory problems as well as anxiety and depression.

In 2008, researchers published the results of a trial with people who had breast or bowel cancer. People with bowel cancer did thought and memory tests before they had chemotherapy. They did the tests again after chemotherapy. The tests were below normal for 3 out of 10 people tested before chemo (33%). The problems improved after a while. After 2 years, only 1 in 10 people (10%) had below normal results. The researchers in this study suggest that other factors may contribute to cognitive impairment, including anxiety, the cancer itself or other treatments.

Changes in blood proteins called cytokines

Cytokines are made by the body as part of the immune response. Researchers have looked at blood levels of cytokines in women who had treatment for breast cancer. The researchers compared them with cytokine levels in women who didn’t have breast cancer. They found that women with breast cancer had higher cytokine levels. They also found that women who reported thought and memory problems had the highest levels of cytokines. We need more research to find out what this actually means. The researchers are extending their study to include more women who have had breast cancer and also people with other types of cancer.

Future researchIn 2006 a group of specialists and patients set up the International Cognition and Cancer Task Force (ICCTF). This group aims to guide future research and give information to patients and doctors about how to manage the symptoms of cognitive impairment.

In research comparing formal brain tests with symptoms reported by patients, more people reported problems than showed up on the formal tests. The researchers suggest that the formal tests aren’t able to pick up the kind of cognitive problems that people with cancer have. We need more research to look at the best way to test people for these slight changes in memory and thought processes.

Preventing and treating chemo brain

Doctors have been looking into how to prevent and treat cancer related thought and memory problems. It is still too early to know how well these work but they include

Taking a drug called EPO to help raise haemoglobin levels

Aspirin – which works as a mild blood thinning drug

Methylphenidate – a type of stimulant for chronic fatigue syndrome, daytime drowsiness and attention deficit disorder

The aim with EPO or aspirin treatment is to maintain or increase blood flow to the brain cells and so increase their oxygen supply. Understanding more about what causes ‘chemo brain’ will help doctors to find ways of preventing and treating it.

Tips for coping with chemo brain

Keep life simple

Don’t try and do too many things at once

Write lists about what you need to do, things you need to buy and where you left things

Write people’s names down with a brief description to help you remember them

Repeat things back to people, for example, repeat the names of people you meet for the first time

When arranging to meet someone or organising an event write the details down and repeat them back to someone

Talk to people somewhere quiet with few distractions

Keep a calendar on your wall

Write yourself ‘Post it’ notes and stick them up where you can see them to remind you to do things

Eat healthily, exercise, and get plenty of rest – don’t get over tired

Keep your mind active doing crosswords, sudoku and puzzles

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MIRACLES of life:

I for some reason was never blessed with a child and now it is too late.

However, I ,up until today, have won the battle against advanced IV grade Breast Cancer. NOW, that is what I call a Miracle.

Maybe some times we have to lose to win.

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Inspirational Video

…..but Dont You DARE Quit…

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Life as I knew it, has changed for me. I would be in denial if I said otherwise.

However, I am richer for the experience and know every day IS a gift.

Here is a well written article by Hester Hill Schnipper on LIFE after Breast Cancer.

HERE’S THE CASE

SHRUGGING OFF her mink coat, Meredith Powers settled into the comfortable chair in my office. A 40-year-old single woman, she had completed her active treatment for stage II breast cancer 3 months earlier. Through the months of surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation, she had maintained most of her normal life routines and insisted that breast cancer was a disruption that could be managed. To her astonishment, she now found herself overwhelmed with emotions and unable to function. She called her medical oncologist when she could barely get out of bed in the morning and found herself weeping uncontrollably. As she explained that she had never before felt so out of control and that she was “baffled” by her feelings, she began to cry.

“Am I crazy?” she asked me.

As we began to talk, it was clear that she was struggling with many problems that were new to her and that were directly related to her diagnosis and treatment. She was exhausted and very frustrated with her diminished level of energy. She was angry with many of her friends and worried about being a burden to her family. She was unhappy with her body and the changes due to her cancer; she hated waiting for her hair to grow and felt “fat and ugly.” She worried about her performance at work and her limited options considering a career move. She wanted her old life back and was starting to understand that was impossible.

For more than 20 years, I have been an oncology social worker, working primarily with women who have breast cancer. For the past 8 years, I, too, have been a woman diagnosed with this illness and have been transformed as my life’s work has become my life. Working daily with women who are struggling with the same issues that confront me, I have been challenged to focus my attention and my efforts on understanding and ameliorating the issues of breast cancer survivorship.

There are more than 2 million breast cancer survivors in the United States and many millions more worldwide. As early detection and more effective treatments secure long-term survival for more and more women, the physical and emotional impact of this diagnosis and its treatments must be addressed. It is no longer enough, although it is certainly important, to cure the cancer. The lifelong consequences of breast cancer treatment need to be recognized, addressed, and treated so women can enjoy the lives they go on to live. It is vital that physicians and other oncology caregivers recognize this reality and prepare their patients for the posttreatment period with the same detail, empathy, and attention that was given to earlier explanations of diagnosis and treatment planning.

The crisis of breast cancer does not abate with the final chemotherapy or radiation treatments. Indeed, in many ways, the real crisis is just beginning. How do you learn to live with the sword of Damocles ever dangling? How do you come to terms with the changes in your body as well as the changes in your perspective? How do you manage the changed relationships and the intense emotions that continue into the future? These are questions with which the patient will have to struggle, as life is slowly reclaimed. Recognizing that there are existential issues that must be examined by each of us in our own hearts, there are predictable problems in many other areas that can be addressed by caregivers.

The most important facts to be given to all women as they near the end of their active treatment are that the recovery process is slow, that many find it emotionally more challenging than the months of treatment, and that they should be prepared for some days of worry, sadness, frustration, and anger. A good rule of thumb is that recovery will take as long as the total duration of treatment, counting from the day of diagnosis until the day of the final radiation or chemotherapy treatment. The issues of life before cancer will be waiting; cancer does not make other troubles disappear. It is likely that tolerance for these issues will be more limited and that patients will experience a sense of being out of sync with many friends who imagine that the cancer experience is over.

SHORT- AND LONG-TERM PHYSICAL AND MENTAL CHANGES
As more women are surviving breast cancer, attention is being paid to the physical sequelae of radiation and chemotherapy treatments. Common complaints include fatigue and low energy that may last for months. Muscle stiffness, joint pain, and general aches and pains are inevitably accompanied by fear that they signal a recurrence. Even the specific and relatively minor aches and pains directly related to treatment (eg, transient shooting pains in the breast, arm, and hand or chronic chest tightness or even pain after breast reconstruction) may be interpreted with anxiety about their meaning.

There are widely varying estimates that between 5% and 33% of women who have breast surgery eventually, months or years later, develop lymphedema. Lymphedema is uncomfortable and, depending on its degree, can also be quite unsightly. Because there is no real cure, it is extremely important that physicians educate their breast cancer patients of the guidelines to minimize the risk. Women need to be reminded that these rules need to be followed for the rest of their lives. Because women remain more vulnerable to infection on the affected arm, physicians should also address the signs of infection and the need to quickly seek medical attention should it occur.

Some women are unhappy with their changed bodies and feel that they have aged precipitously. Surgical scars and changed breasts, especially, but not only, for women who have had mastectomies, can be accompanied by weight gain, hair changes, and subtle changes in skin tone, texture, and even color. Women speak of having to adapt to a new physical sense of self as well as a new sense of emotional vulnerability.

Cognitive changes after chemotherapy have recently been documented and have proven that “chemo brain” does exist! Tim A. Ahles, a psychologist, presented a study at an American Cancer Society meeting in March 2000 that was conducted at the Dartmouth Medical School in Hanover, New Hampshire. Overall, individuals who had received chemotherapy, in nine areas of cognitive functioning, scored significantly worse than a similar group of women who had not had chemotherapy. These differences lasted up to 10 years after the completion of treatment. Many women experience a general blunting of mental acuity, a certain fuzziness with quantitative thinking, and trouble with short-term memory and word finding. These deficits appear to improve slowly, but may never disappear. It is impossible to differentiate sharply between changes caused by menopause and diminished estrogen, by stress and psychological trauma and by the chemotherapy drugs themselves. Whatever the absolute cause, the cognitive changes are real and distressing. It is reassuring for women to be told that these changes are normal and likely will improve.

There is the rare but devastating possibility of a second cancer caused by the first treatment. There is the possibility of organ damage caused by chemotherapy agents or radiation therapy. Fortunately, most women are very unlikely to have to face these potentially life-threatening aftereffects. Most women, however, will have to contend with life-changing effects of their treatments, and most women are unhappily surprised by this reality.

MENOPAUSE AND SEXUAL CHANGES
Even women who had not planned to have more children find it distressing to have an acute menopause due to chemotherapy. Younger women feel suddenly older and saddened by one more way of feeling less womanly. The hot flashes, mood swings, and sexual changes can seem even more troublesome in the context of living with breast cancer. It is relieving to women to be reassured that the lowered (or vanished) libido and diminished responsiveness they feel are normal and likely to improve somewhat over time. In the early days of living with breast cancer, sexuality may seem less important to the woman, her partner, and certainly her doctors. It is ironic that the wish for intimacy and loving may increase during treatment while the desire for sex diminishes. However, as time passes, both sexuality and intimacy regain importance and it is unfortunate that few caregivers address sexuality with their breast cancer patients. There are strategies and products that can help and women should routinely be asked if they would like to speak further about these issues. If a physician does not feel comfortable discussing issues of sexuality, the patient could be referred to an oncology social worker or another therapist who is more at ease with this subject. By not dealing with sexuality, a physician may be unconsciously implying that the breast cancer survivor is less womanly and desirable than she was, or that these are not topics of importance. Both ideas are wrong.

INFERTILITY
The impact of breast cancer may be the most painful for younger women who had not yet completed their families. Grieving for what will never be can be just as intense as grieving for what has been lost. Certainly there are women who are able to achieve healthy pregnancies and healthy babies after breast cancer, but many others cannot do so, and any survivor contemplating pregnancy must also confront the realities of her possibly compromised life expectancy. The permanent loss of menses and, therefore, of traditional conception options is frequently cited as one of the most difficult issues for younger women. Although there may be other ways to build a family, being forced to consider alternatives to biologic motherhood can be one more devastating force of breast cancer.

ECONOMIC EFFECTS AND PROFESSIONAL ISSUES
We all have economic realities in our lives, and cancer can cause financial stress. In the acute phases, there may be lost income owing to missed work time or a smaller disability check. There likely have been additional expenses related to noncovered medical bills, childcare, transportation, or more take-out food. There is the well-known phenomenon of “retail therapy” that can result in large credit card bills. There may also be long-term financial implications. Thanks to the Americans With Disabilities Act, it is illegal to discriminate against someone at work because of cancer or another disability. The practical reality, however, is that it is almost impossible to prove that a missed promotion or denied new position is due to a cancer history.

Medical insurance may he harder to obtain and its availability as a benefit may also limit career choices. Cancer survivors often cannot purchase private disability and life insurance, although they may still be available as a group benefit. Unless a sound estate plan was already in place before diagnosis, it is difficult to secure the building blocks of financial planning after cancer. In this instance, an older person may be in a better position than a young parent who has been concentrating on building a life rather than planning for the future.

Having cancer causes anyone to examine her life and to think carefully about priorities and time. Many women decide that their work life is less important than it was and some choose to reduce their professional responsibilities. Others, however, feel that time may be more limited and thus they may push even harder to achieve goals. The central truth is that the diagnosis of cancer may impact a woman’s professional life and that it is helpful to acknowledge this and remind her that there are lawyers, career consultants, financial planners, and others who can be helpful, if necessary.

INTERPERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS
It is an unfortunate reality that having cancer can change relationships. Its impact on family and friends cannot be overestimated. It is likely that some friendships, even old ones, may be lost due to this stress, while others will be forged and strengthened. A common complaint of survivors is the apparent belief of those around them that, once the last treatment is over, the cancer is over. Family, friends et al may expect an immediate return to full family and work responsibilities and not appreciate the lingering fatigue. They are unlikely to understand, or to want to understand, the existential dread that remains and the hard facts of uncertainty. Many women find themselves angered and saddened by their friends’ apparent insensitivity. It is helpful to suggest that, to the extent that they are comfortable doing so, they educate their friends about the natural history and uncertainties of breast cancer. Their friends may still not fully understand the anxiety, but they will likely be more appreciative of the struggle.

Husbands and partners are relieved that the treatment is done and may likely be exhausted by the extra roles they have assumed. They worry about their wives’ possible deaths and how they would manage alone. They may well have tried to protect their spouses and not expressed these fears, and their wives may have interpreted this silence as indifference or misunderstanding. Many couples need time and, sometimes, help to find their way back to one another and to find the separate but parallel paths that continue together on the journey of life.

Children generally resume their normal routines and their natural styles long before the end of treatment. I have been part of a decade-long study of the impact of a mother’s breast cancer diagnosis on her children. Over and over again, we have found that giving children age-appropriate information and making it possible for them to continue their usual schedules make their adjustment easier. Adult children may well be served by being educated about their mother’s prognosis and fears. Younger children require more concrete information about the impact on their immediate needs and may need reassurance that “someone will always take care of them.” If the cancer should return, there will be time to deal with the painful realities. Worry during the period of recovery and, hopefully, continued good health is the job of the adults in the family, not of the children.

Single women face special challenges after breast cancer. It is never easy dating and certainly breast cancer does not make it easier. Women can be reassured of one solid truth: that any partner worth having will not be scared away by her illness. It always takes courage to take the risk to meet, know, and love someone. Now it may take even more. It can be especially helpful for single women to find and talk with others who are dealing with similar concerns. Referring women to one another can be the most helpful intervention that can be offered.

In my practice, I facilitate a number of support groups. It is striking that more women seek a group after their breast cancer treatment than at the time of diagnosis or during chemotherapy or radiation. Once the physical battle is over, the psychological struggle intensifies. It is so important that women feel supported in this work and understand that their feelings are normal and appropriate. Finding others who share the experience can be enormously reassuring and empowering. Of course not every woman is interested in healing in the company of others; some women find other ways to rebuild and to reclaim their lives as they adapt to a “new normal.”

The challenges of survivorship are many. More than anything else, it is the searing recognition of mortality that changes everything. From this moment forward, all of life will be viewed through a double lens as we appreciate the possibilities of both a long life and a greatly abbreviated one. This dual view may actually, over time, enrich our lives. We make a conscious and willing choice, each of us living with cancer, to go on, to take and to appreciate the darkness as well as the sunlight. We hold dear the night as well as the morning.

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After saying an emotional farewell to her mother,Sarah Phillips,16, decided to produce a personal tribute to Debbie Phillips four year battle against Cancer.

Alone, in her bedroom, Sarah read the words of the song “Autumn” by Scottish singer Paul Nutini,from the Internet.

Then,holding her mobile phone in her left hand and using it as a recording device, she sang pitch perfect, without music – and without a single mistake or hesitation.

Four and a half hours later, Sarah and her family were at Debbies bedside in the family home when she passed away.

Debbie was only 48 years old.

The song has now been put to music and include clips from family videos – taken during the last two decades of Debbies life.

In just five days the You Tube clip had received thousands of hits. It has become a Global Internet sensation.

The Debbie Phillips Cervical Cancer Research will raise money for the UCL Cancer Institute Research Trust.

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Finding breast cancer during pregnancy

When a pregnant woman develops breast cancer, it is often diagnosed at a later stage than it is in women who are not pregnant. This is because during pregnancy, hormone changes cause a woman’s breasts to get larger, tender, and lumpy. This can make it harder for you or your doctor to find a lump in your breasts. Mammograms are also harder for doctors to read during pregnancy because the breast tissue becomes denser. The early changes caused by cancer could be mistaken for or hidden by the normal changes that happen with pregnancy.

It is fairly safe to have a mammogram during pregnancy. The amount of radiation needed for a mammogram is small. And the radiation is focused on the breast. For extra protection, a lead shield is placed over the lower part of the belly to stop radiation from reaching the womb. Still, scientists can’t be certain about the effects of even a small dose of radiation on an unborn baby. If your doctor does not believe you need to have your mammogram right away, it may be best to wait. Other imaging tests that do not use radiation, such as breast ultrasound, may be used instead. These are thought to be safe alternatives to mammograms during pregnancy.

Even during pregnancy, early detection is an important part of breast health. Talk to your doctor or nurse about breast exams and the best time for your next mammogram — especially if you are age 40 or older, or if you or your doctor notices a change in how your breasts look or feel. As always, if you find any lump or change in your breasts, tell your doctor or nurse right away.

Breast cancer diagnosis and staging during pregnancy

Biopsy

A new lump or abnormal imaging test result may cause concern, but a biopsy is needed to find out if it is breast cancer. During a biopsy a piece of tissue is taken from the area the doctors are concerned about. This is usually done either using a long, hollow needle or through a small surgical incision (cut). A breast biopsy during pregnancy can usually be done without being admitted to the hospital. The doctor uses medicine to numb just the area of the breast involved in the biopsy. This causes little risk to the fetus. But the biopsy can be done under general anesthesia (where drugs are used to put the patient into a deep sleep) if needed, with only a small risk to the fetus.

Other tests

If breast cancer has been found, other tests may be needed to find out if cancer cells have spread within the breast or to other parts of the body. This process is called staging. Staging tests are very important for pregnant women with breast cancer because their cancers tend to be found at a more advanced stage. Which staging tests may be needed depends on your case.

Keep in mind that the fetus is not exposed to radiation with tests such as ultrasound and magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) scans. Overall, these tests are thought to be safe and can be used if they are important to your care. But, the contrast material or dye sometimes used in MRI crosses the placenta (the organ that connects the mother to the fetus). It has been linked with fetal abnormalities in lab animals. For this reason, an MRI that uses contrast dye is not recommended during pregnancy. But an MRI without contrast does not involve radiation and can be used if needed.

Chest x-rays, sometimes needed to help make treatment decisions, use a small amount of radiation. They are thought to be safe for pregnant women when the belly is shielded.

Other tests, such as bone scans or computed tomography (CT) scans of the chest, abdomen (belly), or pelvis, are more likely to expose the fetus to radiation. These tests are not often needed, especially if the cancer is thought to be just in the breast. In rare cases when these scans are needed, doctors can adjust the way the test is done to limit the amount of radiation the fetus is exposed to.

There are no reported cases of breast cancer being transferred from the mother to the fetus. In very few cases, the cancer has reached the placenta (the organ that connects the mother to the fetus). This could affect the amount of nutrition the fetus gets from the mother.

Breast cancer treatment during pregnancy

If breast cancer is found during pregnancy, the type and timing of treatment depends on many things, such as:

the size of the tumor

where the tumor is

how far along the pregnancy is

what the woman prefers

Treating a pregnant woman with breast cancer has the same goals as treating a non-pregnant woman: control the cancer in the place where it started, and keep it from spreading. But protecting a growing embryo or fetus may make reaching these goals more complex.

If a pregnant woman needs chemotherapy, hormone therapy, or radiation therapy to treat breast cancer, she may be asked to think about ending the pregnancy. This is because these treatments may harm the fetus. It is easier to treat a woman who is not pregnant because there is no fear of harming the fetus. But no studies have proven that ending a pregnancy in order to have cancer treatment improves the woman’s prognosis (outlook). These issues are discussed in more detail in sections below.

Surgery

When possible, surgery is the first line of treatment for any woman with breast cancer, including those who are pregnant. Removing the tumor (lumpectomy) or the entire breast (mastectomy), and/or taking out the lymph nodes under the arm carry little risk to the fetus. But there are certain times in pregnancy when anesthesia (the drugs used to make you sleep for surgery) may be riskier for the fetus. Many doctors, such as the obstetrician, surgeon, and the anesthesiologist will need to work together to decide the best time during pregnancy to do the surgery. They can also decide which drugs and techniques are the safest for both the mother and the baby.

Mastectomy can often be used as the first treatment for early stage cancers. Depending on the cancer’s stage, a woman may get more treatment such as chemotherapy, radiation, and/or hormone therapy after surgery to help lower the risk of the cancer coming back. This is called adjuvant treatment, since it’s used along with the main treatment (surgery).

Women who have breast-saving surgery, like lumpectomy, often need radiation therapy afterward to reduce the chance that the cancer will come back. The need for radiation is an important issue for pregnant women when choosing which surgery to have. Radiation could affect the fetus if given during the pregnancy, so it is not used until after the birth. Doctors don’t know how this delay may affect a woman’s risk of the cancer coming back (recurrence). Cancer found in the 3rd trimester may involve very little delay in radiation treatments, so there would likely be no effect on outcome. And a woman who will be getting chemotherapy before radiation may have little or no delay in her radiation treatments. But cancers found early in the pregnancy may mean more delay in radiation. Treatment must always be considered on a case by case basis.

Chemotherapy

Chemotherapy, which is also called chemo, may be used along with surgery (as an adjuvant treatment) for some earlier stages of breast cancer. It also may be used by itself for more advanced cancers.

Chemo usually is not given during the first 3 months of pregnancy (which is called the first trimester). This is because most of the fetus’s internal organs develop during the first trimester. The risk of miscarriage (losing the baby) is also the greatest during the first trimester. The safety of chemo during this time has not been studied because of concerns about damage to the fetus.

It was once thought that all chemo drugs would harm the fetus. But studies have shown that certain chemo drugs used during the second and third trimesters (the fourth through ninth months of pregnancy) do not raise the risk of birth defects or stillbirths. Researchers still do not know whether these children will have any long-term effects.

When a pregnant woman with early breast cancer needs adjuvant chemo after surgery, it is usually delayed until at least the second trimester. For a woman already in her 3rd trimester when the cancer is found, adjuvant chemo may be delayed until after birth. The birth may be induced (brought on) a few weeks early in these cases. Depending on the extent of the cancer, these same treatment plans may also be used for women whose disease is more advanced.

Chemo should not be given 3 to 4 weeks before delivery. This is because one side effect of chemo is that it lowers the mother’s blood counts. This could cause bleeding and increase the chances of infection during birth. Holding off on chemo for the last few weeks before delivery allows the mother’s blood counts to return to normal levels before childbirth.

Radiation therapy

Radiation therapy to the breast is often used after breast-conserving surgeries (lumpectomy or partial mastectomy) to reduce the risk of the cancer coming back. The high doses of radiation used for this can harm the fetus any time during pregnancy. It may cause miscarriage, birth defects, or slow fetal growth, so doctors do not recommend its use during pregnancy.

Pregnant women who choose lumpectomy or partial mastectomy can usually have surgery during the pregnancy and wait until after the baby is born to have radiation therapy. But this treatment approach has not been well-studied in pregnant women. And it is not known if the changes that take place in the breasts during pregnancy and the time delay might affect how well the radiation works.

Hormone therapy

Hormone therapy, such as treatment with tamoxifen, may be used as adjuvant treatment after surgery or as treatment for advanced cancer. Its use in pregnant women has not been well-studied, so its effects are not known. Most infants born to women taking tamoxifen are normal. But there have been reports of head and face birth defects in a few babies born to women who became pregnant while taking tamoxifen. More study in this area is needed.

At this time it is recommended that hormone therapy for breast cancer treatment not be started until after the woman has given birth.

Breast-feeding during cancer treatment

Most doctors recommend that women who have just had babies and are about to be treated for breast cancer should stop (or not start) breast-feeding.

If surgery is planned, stopping breast-feeding will help reduce blood flow to the breasts and make them smaller. This can help with the operation. It also helps reduce the risk of infection in the breast and can help avoid having breast milk collect in biopsy or surgery areas.

Many chemo and hormone therapy drugs can enter breast milk and could be passed on to the baby. So, if the mother is getting chemo or hormone therapy she shouldn’t breast-feed her baby.

If you have specific questions, such as when it might be safe to start breast-feeding, be sure to talk with your health care team. If you plan to start back after you’ve stopped breast feeding for awhile, you will want to plan ahead. You may need extra help from breast feeding experts.

Pulling all the treatment plans together

The hardest part of treatment is when there is a conflict between the best known treatment for the mother and the well-being of the fetus. A woman who is found to have breast cancer during a pregnancy may have hard choices to make, and needs to have expert help. Her obstetrician will need to work with her surgeon, her oncologist, her radiation oncologist, and others. Through all this, the woman with breast cancer will need emotional support, so a counselor or psychologist should also be part of her care team.

Effect of pregnancy on survival after breast cancer

Pregnancy before breast cancer

Some studies have found that women who were diagnosed with breast cancer within 2 years after giving birth did not do as well as other women with breast cancer, but other studies have not found such a difference. More research is needed in this area.

Pregnancy during breast cancer

Pregnancy may make it harder to find and diagnose breast cancer. But most studies have found that the outcome among pregnant and non-pregnant women with breast cancer is about the same for cancers found at the same stage. For example, a study at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center showed that pregnant women who had a mastectomy did no worse than women who were not pregnant and had a mastectomy. Survival rates after 5 and 10 years were almost the same in these 2 groups. So pregnancy and the breast changes it causes did not worsen the mother’s chances of surviving breast cancer.

Some doctors believe that ending the pregnancy may help slow the course of more advanced breast cancers, and they may recommend an abortion in these cases. It has been hard to prove whether this improves the women’s outcomes. It is hard to do research in this area and very few good studies have been done. The studies that have been done have not shown that ending the pregnancy improves a woman’s survival or cancer outcome.

Studies have not shown that the treatment delays sometimes needed during pregnancy have an effect on breast cancer outcome. But this, too, has proven to be a difficult area to study.

Pregnancy after breast cancer treatment

Some treatments for breast cancer, such as certain chemo drugs, may affect a woman’s ability to have a baby (fertility). Still, many women are able to become pregnant after treatment. Women concerned about their fertility should talk to their doctors about this before starting breast cancer treatment.

Doctors are not sure if women who have had breast cancer in the past increase their risk of the cancer coming back by becoming pregnant. A few studies have been done on this. Most have found that pregnancy does not increase the risk of the cancer coming back after successful treatment of breast cancer.

But doctors know there is a clear link between estrogen levels and growth of breast cancer cells. Because of this link, many doctors advise breast cancer survivors to wait at least 2 years after treatment before trying to get pregnant. This would give them the chance to find any early return of the cancer, which could affect a woman’s decision to become pregnant later on. Still, this advice is not based on data from any clinical trials. Each woman’s decision is based on many things, such as her age, her desire for more pregnancies, her risk of an early relapse, and the potential effect estrogen may have on her risk of a breast cancer coming back.

Women taking hormone therapy, such as tamoxifen, should talk with their doctors before trying to become pregnant. These drugs could affect a growing fetus
There is no proof that a woman’s past breast cancer has any effect on her baby. But chemotherapy for breast cancer can cause some damage to the ovaries. Treatment can also cause women to delay trying to get pregnant. These factors together often mean that a woman has less of a chance of getting pregnant after breast cancer treatment.

All women who have had breast cancer and are thinking about having children should talk with their doctors about how treatment can affect their chances for another pregnancy. They will also want to know their risk of cancer coming back. In many cases, counseling can help women sort through the choices that come with surviving breast cancer and planning a pregnancy.

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Michael Angel still remembers the colour of the walls in the hospital waiting room, and exactly how the furniture was arranged. He also remembers how helpless he felt as he waited for his wife to be brought back from the operating theatre, days after being told she had breast cancer.

“I sat there and realised that, at the age of 40, my whole life could be about to change,” he says. “Sheila might not make it through surgery, or the doctors might open her up and discover the cancer was far worse than they thought. I felt alone and completely terrified.”

Sheila Angel had suffered worrying symptoms for 18 months before finally receiving a diagnosis, and surgery to remove the cancerous tissue was scheduled for just five days later. While his wife received good medical care and support from the hospital staff, Michael feels he was left to muddle through as best he could.

“No one really told me what to expect after the operation – how Sheila would feel about her body or how the two of us would get by,” he says. “Our children were 14, 17 and 20, and we didn’t know how to break the news that their mother was seriously ill. I didn’t feel resentful that I wasn’t being given any support, but I felt so lonely, and there were endless questions I wanted to ask in the weeks and months that followed.

“I tried to lift Sheila’s spirits on the down days, and build her confidence back up, but for a long time she still thought she was going to die. I just wanted to ask someone who’d been through it: is this normal? Should I be this frightened?”

Some 32,000 women in Britain are diagnosed with breast cancer every year. Virtually all of them will undergo the trauma of surgery -whether lumpectomy or mastectomy – together with drug treatment and radiotherapy. Many will have to come to terms with the loss of a breast and may live in fear of the disease recurring.

The development of nurse counselling services means that psychological support for women with the disease has improved rapidly in recent years – but with the focus on the woman, the needs of husbands and partners tend to get forgotten. Like Michael Angel, the male partners of women with breast cancer are expected to cope, however terrified they may feel. Now a group of men who have been through this experience – including Michael – are running a support group to help others in the same situation.

The Partner Volunteer service was initiated about 18 months ago by the charity Breast Cancer Care, which already had a network of local volunteer groups offering information and support to women diagnosed with breast cancer. It was those volunteers – women with personal experience of the disease – who suggested that their husbands might also need a shoulder to cry on.

“Not only do partners have to cope with the fact that their wife faces surgery, may lose a breast and might even die,” says Jan Murray, then volunteer services manager with the charity. “They also have to come to terms with their own feelings. They are bound to be upset, angry, helpless and frightened. But despite that, they are meant to put a brave face on things and give support, reassurance and love to their wife.”

Partners face all sorts of practical, emotional and sexual problems. Practically, they are often expected to keep things running smoothly at home and care for children on their own, burden enough for anyone not used to such responsibility.

Emotionally, many women are so drained by their experiences before, during and after cancer treatment that they do not have the energy to worry about their partner’s feelings, and rely on him to provide love, support and stability. Giving this kind of support can take its toll on a partner. As well as trying to constantly reassure and build up his wife’s confidence, he may have to deal with a woman whose personality changes with the illness, and who takes out her frustration, anger and fear on the person closest to her. This leads to feelings of rejection and worthlessness when nothing he says or does seems to help.

Sexual anxieties are among the most prominent: a man may not be sure what to expect after his wife has undergone an operation for breast cancer. He won’t know exactly what she will look like, or how he will cope with seeing her scar exposed. There is often the fear that husband and wife will never achieve the same intimacy again.

“Most men are amazed at the strength of their feelings,” says Jan Murray, “All cancer is traumatic, but there is something rather different about breast cancer. A woman’s body is a such a fundamental part of a couple’s life together, that if she loses a part of it or is scarred after surgery, it affects the whole relationship.”

So far, the Partner Volunteer group has helped dozens of men. An initial group of 17 partners responded to letters from Breast Cancer Care and came together for a training weekend in London. They were of all ages, came from different backgrounds and lived across the country. “But when we got together and shared our experiences, we felt an amazing affinity,” says Michael Angel.

It is relatively early days, but Jan Murray admits the volunteers haven’t had as many calls as they might have expected. They are up against what one volunteer describes as a “male thing”. Men often find it hard to admit that they aren’t coping well with a situation. Pride stops them from asking for help or advice, or even admitting that they are upset. From an early age they have been brought up to believe that men don’t lean on other people when they’ve got problems – and they certainly don’t cry.

The medical profession has responded positively to Breast Cancer Care’s initiative. “Years ago consultants in the field weren’t aware of the need for support for women patients, let alone their partners,” says Jan Murray. “But most consultants now realise that the problems don’t end when you send someone home from hospital after treatment – they are often only just beginning.”

Mr Chris Ward, chair of the charity’s medical advisory panel and a consultant plastic surgeon at Charing Cross Hospital, London, calls the new service an “essential initiative”: “There is now a much greater emphasis on holistic care which takes account of family dynamics and personal issues. We hope this kind of service spreads to the partners of patients in other situations.”

With next month being dedicated to Breast Cancer Awareness, Jan Murray predicts there will be “a lot of raised anxiety” among men on the subject. “We want to let them know in advance there is help at hand – and someone to talk to.”

Breast Cancer Care’s freephone number is 0500-245345.

‘THE SEXUAL SIDE HAS BEEN DIFFICULT FOR US … I DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO REASSURE HER THAT SHE’S STILL THE WOMAN I MARRIED AND LOVE VERY MUCH’

Ron Powell is 55 and lives near Spalding in Lincolnshire. Four years ago his wife Beverley, now 50, was diagnosed as having breast cancer after a routine mammogram at a local clinic. Within a week she had undergone a mastectomy.

“When the consultant first told us about the cancer, he said it was a very severe case; the worst scenario was that if they couldn’t remove all the cancerous tissue Beverley would only have 15 months to live. We were both numb at first, then couldn’t stop crying. We were also angry – why was this happening to us?

“Even after the operation, when the consultant said he thought he’d managed to remove all the cancer, we still thought, what if he’s wrong? Even the experts sometimes make mistakes. Beverley was in hospital for several days and during that time I found it difficult to keep going. Being up at the hospital every day wasn’t too bad, but I hated coming home alone in the evenings and having time to brood. I felt powerless: there was Beverley lying in a hospital bed, frightened that she was going to die, and I could do nothing to help.

“At various times over the next few months I started to feel rejected and pushed away. Right up to the day she was diagnosed, Beverley had been happy, bubbly and loved life. But once she knew she had breast cancer she suddenly started to believe she was ill; the weight fell off her and she just fell apart. After the operation she went through periods of real depression – we both did. The whole thing had been so sudden that we hadn’t had time to talk about it, or prepare ourselves.

“It was months before we started to talk about what had happened. We should have tried to communicate and been affectionate towards each other, but at the time I couldn’t even give Beverley a hug. She felt like she’d lost her femininity, and didn’t want to show me her scar. Although I wasn’t worried about that side of it and kept reassuring her that I still loved her, I did feel very confused about the change in her. It made a hell of a difference to our relationship – to the point where we slept in separate bedrooms for nearly a year after the operation. Even now we go through periods where it’s hard to touch each other.

“About four months after the operation a deep depression hit me. When Beverley had been diagnosed my initial reaction had been, how am I going to cope with this? What am I going to do? Later I started to feel guilty and selfish that those thoughts were all about me. I was so low that I couldn’t even speak to anyone without crying. It was a reaction to what we’d been through, mixed with guilt that I wasn’t the one who had had the disease. But as a partner you do go through hell.

The sexual side has been very difficult for us. For some reason, when a woman loses one or both breasts she often doesn’t want to have sex and it becomes a duty. I kiss her scar and do everything I can to reassure her that she is still the woman I married and the woman I love very much. If it means that our sexual habits are in decline, then I can live with that. But I can’t live without her.”

Source: The Independent

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I think I should have been a late night DJ…this is for all those we love and those that are loved .

This is one of my many favourite songs, no other reason why it is here.

It is Friday night and a long lazy week-end lies ahead.

I also dedicate this to a very ‘Special’ friend who is always honest,,,,at times…I think, but am not sure…. he will smile when he hears this line…

…ain’t no surprise
just pour me a drink and I’ll tell you some lies….

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