Patrick Swayze: Never knew how much he helped me.

I was never a fan of Patricks .I only saw one movie ‘Dirty Dancing’ about 20 times. I love that film . I also watched Ghost, but later ,after Patrick had died.

I have already mentioned two of our very close friends had also been diagnosed with cancer, the same time as myself.

Stephan was distraught. My mother was very sick , my father also had been diagnosed with cancer.

I had no one to talk to about my feelings. It was a very lonely time. I would not say I was afraid, or feared death but I did need to talk about it.

I wanted to talk about my funeral and what I wanted and my animals, that Stephan would look after them . I guess death WAS heavy on my mind.

I would search the Internet looking for someone who had my rare form of Cancer. I joined every American forum I could find and left messages if anyone had my type of cancer to please contact me.

There was no one.

Patrick was diagnosed with one of the most deadly forms of cancer,he was being treated for Pancreatic Cancer..
this was March 2008…for me November 2008.

Patrick agreed to do a ‘Special’ with Barbara Walters and talk about his cancer.

This is what I needed .I needed someone to talk about the word I could not say, CANCER.

This is the first part of the interview. I remember watching him for the first time and would watch this over and over as I went through my treatment.

I thought Patrick ,if you can do it and your chances are much less than mine,then I can do it.

I thought as long as Patrick lives, I shall also live …. we will keep each other alive.

January 2009 ,the same time as this interview, was also the darkest time of my life .I was about to have my second cycle of chemo. I could not eat, I could not sleep and yet I was so tired but sleep would not come.

Patrick knew exactly how I felt . He helped me through those dark,dark days.

As you listen to his story ,you will realise what an incredible human being he was.

The movie GHOST…a line he mentions, I at this time did not want to hear.

When you die.

‘The love inside, you take it with you’.

I did not want Patrick going anywhere and I hung on to his every word, as I battled my disease.